Same Mistake

9 01 2008

So while I’m turning in my sheets
And once again, I cannot sleep
Walk out the door and up the street
Look at the stars beneath my feet
Remember rights that I did wrong
So here I go

There is no place I cannot go
My mind is muddy but
My heart is heavy, does it show
I lose the track that loses me
So here I go

And so I sent some men to fight,
And one came back at dead of night,
Said “Have you seen my enemy?”
Said “he looked just like me”
So I set out to cut myself
And here I go

I’m not calling for a second chance,
I’m screaming at the top of my voice,
Give me reason, but don’t give me choice,
Cause I’ll just make the same mistake again.

And maybe someday we will meet
And maybe talk and not just speak
Don’t buy the promises ’cause
There are no promises I keep,
And my reflection troubles me
So here I go

So while I’m turning in my sheets

And once again, I cannot sleep

Walk out the door and up the street

Look at the stars

Look at the stars, falling down,

And I wonder where, did I go wrong.





Old School

4 11 2007

Don’t believe everything happiness says
Nothing feels better then hiding these days
We bury our fears in the drinks in these tears
For the days we believed we could fly
Call up you’re brothers and sisters and friends
We’ll go back to the place where the night never ends
We’ll remember the fires
The burning car tires
Boy how in the hell did we get here?

So why don’t you meet me down behind our old school
We’ll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavaleer we used to be
That beautiful insanity the apathy surrounding me
Don’t close your eyes or we’ll fade, away
Over and over and over again
We sat down for a minute grew up into men
Now we’re putting out fires and changing car tires.
Man how in the hell did we get here?

So why don’t you meet me down behind our old school
We’ll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavaleer we used to be
That beautiful insanity the apathy surrounding me
Don’t close your eyes or we’ll fade away this time.
And we’ll never get back what we gave away
When we stare at that fire in our eyes.
Old School

Don’t believe everything happiness says
Nothings as real as our old reckless ways
When we drink by the fires the burning car tires
Bad girls and good liars, the dreams we conspired
The days we went crazy, the nights wild and hazy
Man how in the hell did we get here?

So why don’t you meet me down behind our old school
We’ll waste away the weekend with perfect regard for how cavaleer we used to be
That beautiful insanity the apathy surrounding me
Don’t close your eyes or we’ll fade away.





321

7 09 2007

Ahhhhh!! HEDLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

’tis all.





Buscandome

9 06 2007

What is the emergency?
Why are we moving so fast?
The questions you ask, they’re too much for me.
If you don’t know the answers,
well I don’t think we can last.

The things you want to know about me,
are the things I already want you to know.
Or, things that I want you to find on your own.
How can that be wrong?

Should I explain what I’m trying to say?
Okay, here’s how I feel in the nicest way.
Fuck you and everything that you believe,
you’re supposed to know
.
You deserve to know nothing.
Cause nothing’s what you show!

It doesn’t matter if I’m wrong or if I’m right,
it only matters in the long run.
It doesn’t matter how long the fight.
I’m fighting till I make this right for every one.
Only thing that matters is when we’re done.

It’s over and nobody’s won.





Shine On

16 05 2007

Please don’t cry
You know I’m leaving here tonight
Before I go I want you to know
that there will always be a light

And if the moon had to runaway
And all the stars didn’t wanna play
Don’t waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away, ya

So many times I planned
To be much more than who I am
And if I let you down
I will follow you ’round until you understand

That if the moon had to runaway
And all the stars didn’t wanna play
Don’t waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away, ya, oh ya

When the days all feel the same
Don’t feel the cold or wind or rain
Everything will be okay
We will meet again one day
And I will shine on, for everyone

So please don’t cry
Although I leave you here this night
Where I go how far I don’t know
But I will always be your light

That if the moon had to runaway
And all the stars didn’t wanna play
Don’t waste the sun on a rainy day
The wind will soon blow it all away, ya, oh ya

When the days all seem the same
Don’t feel the cold or wind or rain
Everything will be okay
We will meet again one day
I will shine on, for everyone
Shine on, for everyone
When the stars all look the same
Don’t feel the cold or wind or rain
Everything will be okay
We will meet again one day
I will shine on, for everyone
Shine on, for everyone





Fuck?

28 04 2007

Fuck.





Kevin on Molestation

23 04 2007

“At first I thought your exam was gonna rape you, but now I know what you meant.”





Plane

3 03 2007

Drain the veins in my head
Clean out the reds in my eyes to get by security lines
Dear x-ray machine
Pretend you don’t know me so well
I wont tell if you lied
Cry, cause the droughts been brought up
Drinkin’ cause you’re lookin so good in your starbucks cup
I complain for the company that I keep
The windows for sleeping rearrange
And I’m nobody
Well who’s laughin now

I’m leaving your town again
And I’m over the ground that you’ve been spinning
And I’m up in the air so baby hell yeah
Well, honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I’ll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Damn, I should be so lucky
Even only 24 hours under your touch
You know I need you so much
I cannot wait to call you
And tell you that I landed somewhere
And hand you a square of the airport
And walk you through the maze of the map
That im gazing at
Gracefully unnamed and feeling guilty for the luck
And the look that you gave me
You make me somebody
Oh, nobody knows me
Not even me can see it, yet I bet I’m

I’m leaving your town again
And I’m over the ground that you’ve been spinning
And I’m up in the air, so baby hell yeah
Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I’ll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

You keep me high minded
You get me high

Flax seeds, well they tear me open
And supposedly you can crawl right through me
Taste these teeth please
And undress me from the sweaters better hurry
Cause I’m keeping upward bound now
Oh maybe I’ll build my house on your cloud
Here I’m tumbling for you
Stumbling through the work that I have to do
Don’t mean to harm you

By leaving your town again
But I’m over the quilt that you’ve been spinning 
And I’m up in the air, said baby hell yeah
Oh honey I can see your house from here
If the plane goes down, damn
I’ll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
I’ll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn
Well I’ll remember where the love was found
If the plane goes down, damn

Damn, damn, damn you..
 

You keep me high,
You keep me high minded

You get me high minded
You get me high…

- Jason Mraz
 





Eric on Tony’s Supposed Business Endeavor

26 02 2007

“Are you serious that he’s literally serious that he’s gonna do that?”





An Experience for BMEZINE

22 02 2007

About a year ago I wrote an article on my experience of getting my nape pierced. I completely forgot I wrote it and just stumbled across it now. It was posted on BMEZINE.com under the experience section, of course. I read it over and it’s not the greatest writting… not that I write all that well in the first place… but I’ll post it. It’s semi-interesting. Here it is…

 Sternum… no wait, I mean Nape!

While browsing BME’s pages, like many, I stumbled across the sternum piercing and I thought it was absolutely beautiful. I knew I needed to have it! I researched it extensively and made an appointment to have it done in the next week. I was warned about rejection and the risks associated with surface piercings, but they were all risks I was more than willing to take. It just looked too damn nice.

I had an early appointment, 10:30 am, so I woke up even earlier to make sure I had time to eat a decent breakfast. Once I was all ready I made my way to the shop. I wasn’t nervous at all… until I walked in. Then I was a bit nervous, but I’m sure that’s something most people experience.

I chatted with the person at the front desk (I never got her name, sorry) for a few minutes while Sahaja got everything ready. Finally the time came to sit me down and get me marked. I got cleaned up and Saj meticulously lined everything up, made sure I liked the placement, checked it again and I was ready to go. Next came the clamps. Except, they didn’t come. Or they wouldn’t. I didn’t have enough skin to clamp! And this particular piercing, Saj didn’t do free hand.

Now my options were either to get something else done, or nothing at all. Of course I wasn’t leaving unchanged. Anything on my face wasn’t an option due to work policies. So I opted for another surface piercing, my nape. It was totally spur of the moment, just the way I like things.

I went through the process of marking once again. This time my skin agreed with the clamps. They felt the same way they do with most piercings, uncomfortable. But that is to be expected. And on with the needle we go. I felt it poke as it entered and from there it was mostly a burning sensation with lots of pressure. With the emphasis on the pressure. Once the clamps were off, and the jewelry was in, the burning subsided and I was good to go! It wasn’t as painful as my nipple piercings but I didn’t really consider those painful either.

We went through the aftercare, which was fairly simple. I was warned to be very careful with the piercing as well as the regular stuff like don’t touch it unless you’re cleaning it, wash your hands before cleaning, ect… Also before I left I got an aftercare sheet with a small pouch of unrefined grey sea salt.

Since I was expecting to get my sternum pierced, I had seen just about all the pictures I could find. Now with my nape, I didn’t research it as much and gaze at as many pictures as I would’ve liked to. So when I seen mine for the first time I wasn’t too sure what to expect. But I loved it! I looked really awesome. It definitely made up for any disappointment for not being able to get what I originally sought out for.

I am now on my third day with my nape pierced and everything is going well. I have to get used to sleeping on my side or stomach again. I do sea salt soaks three times daily and clean it once a day in the shower with “Baby’s Own” soap. As far as the sea-salt soaks go, it was interesting trying to find a way to get them done. I could always use paper towels and saturate them with the mixture and go about it that way. But I use a shot glass instead. I fill it up about half way, and to get it on I lean back and sort of suction it on to my neck. Once it’s on I can lean forward while holding it on. It’s complicated at first, and really wet and cold if you don’t get it right, but it gets easier with a little practice.

It’s only been a few days so I can’t offer much advise on the long term repercussions of this piercing but so far I can say that I really like it. It’s aesthetically pleasing and it doesn’t get in the way too often. It does however get in the way sometimes. I have to be careful while brushing my hair and showering. Also, when people come to give you a hug, watch for they’re arms. They often go straight for my neck because I’m a bit sorter than most. And when I was putting my hairnet on for work, I got that caught on the balls. I don’t find that my hair gets caught on it when I wear it down. The only other downfall is that I have to wear a winter coat and the hood rubs up against the piercing sometimes. But that can be avoided. My coat is just really big.

To wrap up this experience, I have to say it was definitely a good one. I am lucky to have a really great studio in my area since I live in Northern Ontario, which doesn’t always offer top quality stuff. I recommend Middle Finger Response to anyone in the area. I didn’t get what I originally wanted but I came out with something just as awesome. I really hope I can heal this piercing and keep for a while. Maybe it’s just wishful thinking. Either way, I hope it lasts.

If you can’t get what you want, because of your anatomy or some other reason, opt for something else even if it’s spur of the moment. You just might love what you get. I know I certainly do!